Soo... yeah. I didn't do my homework last night. Or the night before. Or the night before. Nice, huh? Getting behind so soon after the new term starts. I decided today that I was gonna kick school in the butt and get caught up. But my doctor's appointment screwed that up. So I came home and did nothing, again. I tried to clean my room, and I did make SOME headway, but it's still not done. I hate getting behind, but I hate working. I hate how much homework I get. It totally is not even good. Not at all.
Today I decided that I actually like Harward. I just don't like his homework. He's super nice and really willing to help us as long as we just ask. I really wanted to get a lot done tonight, but it's already 8:45 and I haven't done anything. Maybe I'll just stay up late and get it all done. Then I'll probably be cranky tomorrow morning. But at least I'll feel good tonight... yeah, that sounds like a good plan.
So I'm gonna get goin' on that.
Oh yeah, one more thing. There's an "I Hate Courtney" Club at school. They're currently taking applications. You should check it out. ;)
I'm out.
*corky*
Wednesday, January 31, 2007
Sunday, January 28, 2007
Unnnnh
You know when you first wake up and you're no where near coherent and the only thing you can manage to say is "Uhnnnnh..."? Yeah, that's how I am right now. It's actually pretty fun. I'm just warm and sleepy. I feel kinda bad tho, cuz I'm talking to people and they probably think I'm being rude. I promise I'm not, I'm just drowsy.
You know what's a good song? Dream Big by Ryan Shupe and the Rubberband. It's awesome.
Oh, we're going to my grandma's house now. So I'll see ya'll later.
*corky*
You know what's a good song? Dream Big by Ryan Shupe and the Rubberband. It's awesome.
Oh, we're going to my grandma's house now. So I'll see ya'll later.
*corky*
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
Sick of Sad
Ugh. Alright, here we go.
Everyone is allowed to have their emotions. That's totally true. And I think it's good to feel a variety of things. BUT I hate it when my friends are sad. Seriously. And I feel like I have to fix it. I feel like I have to make it better. When someone is sad or angry, my first thought is "Did I do something?" My second thought: "What can I do to make it better?" And when the answer to the second question is no, it KILLS me. I hate not being able to fix things. I'm a fixer. I can't help it. My dad's a fixer. I guess I learned it from him. I hate knowing that anyone is sad or hurt (physically, emotionally, mentally) and that there's nothing I can do to make it better. I guess that's one reason I want to be a doctor: I can fix people, at least physically. Even if I don't know them, or their family, or what they did yesterday, I would be able to help them. (Was that a comma splice? Oh well.)
I'm beginning to learn that, most of the time, I can't fix it. Whatever IT is. And you know what? It doesn't feel good to figure this out. It seems that lately, when one of my friends is having a bad day, or feeling sad, there's nothing-ABSOLUTELY NOTHING- that I can do. And it hurts. So I've started to avoid people when I know they're sad. Horrible, huh? Doing that completely goes against every instinct and nature I have. Because when I'm around someone, and they're sad, especially if I can't fix it....well, it makes me sad. And I hate being sad. So I have to choose between being with someone and being sad, or being without them. And that's a hard choice. Either way, I'm not as happy as I could be. I hate not being happy. I try my hardest to stay happy, and I like it that way. Even when I have a crappy day, I still try to find at least one thing to smile about. And I've gotten pretty good at doing this. But when I'm sitting next to someone, and they're sad, and I can't fix it... it's hard to find anything to smile about. (I have a feeling there are a bunch of comma splices in this post. Curse you, Harward.)
I don't know. This probably isn't making any sense... :S
I just know that... Well, I'm sick of people being sad. I'm sick of not being able to make people happy. I'm sick of people being sad because of me or something I said or did. I'm sick of not being able to laugh and smile because people are sad. It's stupid. I'm a happy robot, and I like it the way I am. But it's becoming increasingly harder to stay a happy robot when everyone around me is sad.
Annnnnnnyway, on that happy note. ;) I'm outta here.
*corky*
Everyone is allowed to have their emotions. That's totally true. And I think it's good to feel a variety of things. BUT I hate it when my friends are sad. Seriously. And I feel like I have to fix it. I feel like I have to make it better. When someone is sad or angry, my first thought is "Did I do something?" My second thought: "What can I do to make it better?" And when the answer to the second question is no, it KILLS me. I hate not being able to fix things. I'm a fixer. I can't help it. My dad's a fixer. I guess I learned it from him. I hate knowing that anyone is sad or hurt (physically, emotionally, mentally) and that there's nothing I can do to make it better. I guess that's one reason I want to be a doctor: I can fix people, at least physically. Even if I don't know them, or their family, or what they did yesterday, I would be able to help them. (Was that a comma splice? Oh well.)
I'm beginning to learn that, most of the time, I can't fix it. Whatever IT is. And you know what? It doesn't feel good to figure this out. It seems that lately, when one of my friends is having a bad day, or feeling sad, there's nothing-ABSOLUTELY NOTHING- that I can do. And it hurts. So I've started to avoid people when I know they're sad. Horrible, huh? Doing that completely goes against every instinct and nature I have. Because when I'm around someone, and they're sad, especially if I can't fix it....well, it makes me sad. And I hate being sad. So I have to choose between being with someone and being sad, or being without them. And that's a hard choice. Either way, I'm not as happy as I could be. I hate not being happy. I try my hardest to stay happy, and I like it that way. Even when I have a crappy day, I still try to find at least one thing to smile about. And I've gotten pretty good at doing this. But when I'm sitting next to someone, and they're sad, and I can't fix it... it's hard to find anything to smile about. (I have a feeling there are a bunch of comma splices in this post. Curse you, Harward.)
I don't know. This probably isn't making any sense... :S
I just know that... Well, I'm sick of people being sad. I'm sick of not being able to make people happy. I'm sick of people being sad because of me or something I said or did. I'm sick of not being able to laugh and smile because people are sad. It's stupid. I'm a happy robot, and I like it the way I am. But it's becoming increasingly harder to stay a happy robot when everyone around me is sad.
Annnnnnnyway, on that happy note. ;) I'm outta here.
*corky*
Thursday, January 11, 2007
EOT
End Of Term. I'm way behind, so I probably won't be blogging much in the next few days.
I don't know if I'm going to blog much for the next little while, anyway. I think I'm just going to take a break. I really have nothing to write about. And there are like, 2 people even reading.
.....yeah.
So I'm out, for now and for a awhile after.
*corky*
I don't know if I'm going to blog much for the next little while, anyway. I think I'm just going to take a break. I really have nothing to write about. And there are like, 2 people even reading.
.....yeah.
So I'm out, for now and for a awhile after.
*corky*
Thursday, January 04, 2007
Epic
Today is the 4th day of 2007. Now, I could do a simple review or 2006. Or I could be a loser and completely follow Nick (Great job, Nick, btw. That was an awesome post.). OR I could be Courtney, and come up with something completely new. So I decided to do that. Technically, it's still a review of 2006, BUT instead of hearing how I feel now about something that happened in March, you can hear about how the me in March feels about that thing that happened. Does that make sense? So basically, here's what's goin' down. I'll go month by month, describing an event taking place in each month, AND I'll include a quote from my journal, talking about that specific event. So even though I might feel differently now about something that happened a few months ago than I did when it first happened, you're going to hear how I felt then. :D Just know, most of the things I'll write about aren't huge events. They're little nights watching movies with my friends, or at dances, or things like that. They may mean nothing to anyone but me. But I had fun, and they do mean something to me. So read on. Ladies and gentlemen: This is going to be Epic.
Let's start at the beginning, shall we?
January:
I celebrated the New Year with Tania, Valerie, Thatcher, and Kyle at First Night for Youth at the Conference Center. It was AMAZING. You have no idea. Ryan Shupe and the Rubberband was awesome. Kelly Duhan was as entertaining as ever. It was a wonderful night, we had dinner at my house, although because Thatcher was late (as always!) he was rather rushed in eating. Then we took Trax downtown. Afterwards we returned to my house to play Catch Phrase, and pop some poppers at midnight.
On January 26, I wrote:
New Years Eve we went to the First Night for the Youth at the Conference Center. I took Valerie, Tania, Kyle and Thatcher. It was a lot of fun even though we missed the region dance.
February:
The region dance in February was awesome.
On February 19, I wrote:
Last night was the region dance. It was a lot of fun. A little bit into the dance, we (meaning me, Stuart, Seth, and Peter) decided to go outside. It was snowing and there was a ton of snow on the ground. The ground was cold and wet, so of course I went out barefoot. Seth and Peter both freaked out. I was laughing and teasing them. I was perfectly fine. A little chilly ;), but fine. I even walked through the mounds of snow, with snow up past my ankles. I ignored the protests of all of my friends. Finally, they made me go back inside.
The funny thing about that, is that there were little puddles around my feet for the next 15 minutes until all of the snow melted off my feet and legs. ;)
Then February 28 was my birthday! I turned 16, and had an awesome birthday party. This deserves to be in here, because it was a big deal to me. I don't know if anyone else cared, but I had fun!
On February 28, I wrote:
*Happy Birthday to me! Happy Birthday to me! Today has been the best birthday ever! On Friday I had my birthday party. Too much fun... Thatcher got his coat stuck in the Tanner's tree. Crazy kid."
March:
In March, Taylorsville City Youth Council went to Utah State for a few days for a leadership conference. I made a bunch of new friends, and had a blast.
On March 18, I wrote:
I just had a great week! I went to USU Youth Council Conference. I made some amazing friends! Hannah, Isabelle, Nate and Joel. We had such a great time. And they're from River Heights! They know grandma and grandpa! So the most amazing thing about this is that I'll get to see them again! It was really sad when we left today. I got cell phone numbers and everything, so it's going to be so great!
And I have seen them since! It's amazing, I love making new friends!
April:
The band, orchestra, and choir went on tour. It was a lonely week.
On April 2, I wrote:
The past few days have been good, but strange. The band, orchestra, and choir went on tour. School has been so empty. Usually there are about 20 people around my locker. On Wednesday-Friday there were 2. Everyone was gone. Stuart, Becca, Melissa, Peter, Kenny, Sarah, Kyle. There were some people still at school, like Thatcher, James, Levi, Valerie, Tania, and Hope. And it was fun to spend more time with them, but there were a ton of people gone. I've talked to Melissa a lot while she's been gone They went to the zoo and the beach and Sea World. I talked to Kenny yesterday. It was a lot of fun.
I also started hanging out with Jaron and Alan more. And now they're my best friends!
On April 2, I wrote:
I've been hangin out with Jaron and Alan a lot lately, too. They're so funny! They make me laugh so hard! "I'm unarmed!" Hahahaha!
On April 9, I wrote:
Jaron and I... decided to make up our own country. It's called Cjaron. It's awesome! We even have our own "language." It's so cool! ... Jessica and I decided we're gonna double w/ Jaron and Alan. We're gonna go bowling. Jaron says he'll teach me, which is good cuz I can't bowl!
May:
I didn't write anything in my journal during May. I'm sure whatever I was doing, it was great fun!
June:
Girls camp. Ugh. If you know me, you know I am NOT a camper. We'll leave it at that. ;)
On June 7, I wrote:
Kill me now. I'm in a van with 12 other girls. Most of them are beehives, and VERY loud. Lynsey won't shut up! She's singing and gossiping and annoying me. ... I swear, someone is going to end up dead before we get to camp. Either me or someone else! And it'll be my fault!
Now you see that I have little patience when I'm cramped up in a van with 12 12 year olds who are singing Rascal Flatts songs at the top of their lungs. And it's probably not a good idea to wake my up at 5 AM during the summer, either. ;)
On June 8, I wrote:
Alone at last. I don't get much quiet at girls camp. ... All I know now is that I'm very cold.
It rained, snowed, hailed, and slushed. That's right. Slushed. I gained about 40 pounds and 2 inches in height from the mud that stuck to the bottom of my shoes. It was... an experience.
July:
Alan was in Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat at Murray Park. I went to see it, talk about fun.
On July 27, I wrote:
Wow. Today was great. What a turn around. It started out crappy, but ended up great. This morning I told myself that I was gonna have a good day, and I meant it... until my mom told me that I wasn't going to Alan's play. I was so angry. I turned up my music, really really loud, and stayed in my room. I didn't want to talk to my mom, and it was easy not to, since she was doing yard work all morning. At 10 I went to summer seminary... When Alan got there he asked if I was going to the play tonight. I didn't know what to say, so I explained why my parents didn't want me to go (Murray park isn't the best place to be alone at night..especially for a teenage girl). And of course, Alan had a solution. "You could go with my mom. She's going tonight... I might even have a free ticket for you." Alan was awesome.
Summer seminary rocked! On the last day, we had a barbecue. It was a ton of fun!
On July 27, I wrote:
Seminary was great today! It was a barbecue, so we just got to mess around. I hung out with Alan, Jaron, and Silvia. Alan left at noon, and Jaron took me and Silvia to EJH. No one was there, so we went to McDonalds. From there, Jaron went home, and I took Silvia home.
August:
I went to Utah Business Week at Utah State. At first, I didn't want to be there. I missed my friends. But by the end of the week, I didn't want to leave!
On August 1, I wrote:
Maili is my best friend here. We've been sharing food and the funny thing is, our attitudes are a lot alike. We get annoyed at the same things, we make fun of the same things. It's good. Kris, Tyler, and Brenton are my other good friends, although I'm closer to Kris and Tyler. They're so funny. The food here sucks, and both me and Maili have family near, so we've been having our family bring us good food.
On August 2, I wrote:
My room mate went home, so Maili moved in! Yay! lol. There was a dance tonight. It was so much fun! I LOVE dancing. I met this kid named Sam. He reminds me of my friends at home.
On August 3, I wrote:
Oh, wow. Today has been the best so far. Mainly just this afternoon. This morning was filled with boring speakers as usual. This afternoon Maili and I came in to nap for lunch again. I actually got to sleep. Yay. We were late for our company meeting...again. We thought Scott would be mad, but he wasn't. I learned a new game today. It's called "Baby If You Love Me..." SO FUN! I HAVE to teach everyone at home.
September:
The dreaded school begins. The dreaded Junior year.
On September 28, I wrote:
I know, I know. It's 7:10 and I'm already at school. I've been here for 40 minutes. Isn't that insane? Early morning seminary. I love it, but I do miss some things. Like sitting in front of my locker and talking before school.
Early morning seminary is going to be the death of me. I love it, I really do. But it's getting so hard! And like the quitter that I am, I'm switching into seminary during 1B. It'll be better for me.
October:
My little sister had a birthday in October. Kortney and Jaron came over, we messed around with the karaoke machine, and basically had a good time. After Jaron left, Kort slept over. We went through our old journals, and ended up writing for awhile.
On October 6, I wrote:
Hey! I'm sitting here with Kortney. :D We're having fun.
Descriptive, huh? ;) Unfortunately, I didn't write any more about what we did that night, or the next day. You'll just have to trust me. We were having fun. :D
I also asked Alan to Sadies
On October 16, I wrote:
I asked Alan to Sadies last night. I put an alarm clock set for 3:52 under his bed with a poster that said "Wake up! Who knew? It's me, It's you. Get a Clue! Someone wants to go to Sadies with you!"
November:
Sadies! And getting Answered!
On November 20, I wrote:
He trashed my room. Glitter and streamers and balloons everywhere. I had to pop the balloons to see if he said yes or no. But Alan wasn't very sneaky. I totally knew that it was coming.
If you really wanna know about the rest of it, you can read my post on getting answered. And my post for Sadies, for that matter. ;)
On November 21, I wrote:
So yeah, Sadies really wasn't too bad. And after we left the dance, I was mad but I did have fun. I think overall, it's a good memory. I really can't wait for the pictures. I'm super excited for them.
And Thanksgiving, of course!
On November 27, I wrote:
Gotta love Thanksgiving. Lots of food. No school. Sweetness.
December:
I didn't write in December, either. :S Darn. Oh well, I went on a bunch of dates downtown to see the Christmas lights. Christmas break was amazingly fun, and amazingly short. I spent a ton of time with Alan and Jaron, and just had a great time. Life is great!
So there's my review of the year. It was a great year, and I'm totally psyched for the new one. :D It's going to be great, I know it! Thanks to everyone for being my friends. If I didn't mention you up there ^ it's not cuz I didn't want to. It's just cuz, come on, it's my journal. I'd prefer it if my WHOLE journal wasn't posted on the internet. ;) I just picked stuff that wasn't too personal. Anyway, I love ya all. You're all amazing. And I can't wait to hang out more in '07.
*corky*
Let's start at the beginning, shall we?
January:
I celebrated the New Year with Tania, Valerie, Thatcher, and Kyle at First Night for Youth at the Conference Center. It was AMAZING. You have no idea. Ryan Shupe and the Rubberband was awesome. Kelly Duhan was as entertaining as ever. It was a wonderful night, we had dinner at my house, although because Thatcher was late (as always!) he was rather rushed in eating. Then we took Trax downtown. Afterwards we returned to my house to play Catch Phrase, and pop some poppers at midnight.
On January 26, I wrote:
New Years Eve we went to the First Night for the Youth at the Conference Center. I took Valerie, Tania, Kyle and Thatcher. It was a lot of fun even though we missed the region dance.
February:
The region dance in February was awesome.
On February 19, I wrote:
Last night was the region dance. It was a lot of fun. A little bit into the dance, we (meaning me, Stuart, Seth, and Peter) decided to go outside. It was snowing and there was a ton of snow on the ground. The ground was cold and wet, so of course I went out barefoot. Seth and Peter both freaked out. I was laughing and teasing them. I was perfectly fine. A little chilly ;), but fine. I even walked through the mounds of snow, with snow up past my ankles. I ignored the protests of all of my friends. Finally, they made me go back inside.
The funny thing about that, is that there were little puddles around my feet for the next 15 minutes until all of the snow melted off my feet and legs. ;)
Then February 28 was my birthday! I turned 16, and had an awesome birthday party. This deserves to be in here, because it was a big deal to me. I don't know if anyone else cared, but I had fun!
On February 28, I wrote:
*Happy Birthday to me! Happy Birthday to me! Today has been the best birthday ever! On Friday I had my birthday party. Too much fun... Thatcher got his coat stuck in the Tanner's tree. Crazy kid."
March:
In March, Taylorsville City Youth Council went to Utah State for a few days for a leadership conference. I made a bunch of new friends, and had a blast.
On March 18, I wrote:
I just had a great week! I went to USU Youth Council Conference. I made some amazing friends! Hannah, Isabelle, Nate and Joel. We had such a great time. And they're from River Heights! They know grandma and grandpa! So the most amazing thing about this is that I'll get to see them again! It was really sad when we left today. I got cell phone numbers and everything, so it's going to be so great!
And I have seen them since! It's amazing, I love making new friends!
April:
The band, orchestra, and choir went on tour. It was a lonely week.
On April 2, I wrote:
The past few days have been good, but strange. The band, orchestra, and choir went on tour. School has been so empty. Usually there are about 20 people around my locker. On Wednesday-Friday there were 2. Everyone was gone. Stuart, Becca, Melissa, Peter, Kenny, Sarah, Kyle. There were some people still at school, like Thatcher, James, Levi, Valerie, Tania, and Hope. And it was fun to spend more time with them, but there were a ton of people gone. I've talked to Melissa a lot while she's been gone They went to the zoo and the beach and Sea World. I talked to Kenny yesterday. It was a lot of fun.
I also started hanging out with Jaron and Alan more. And now they're my best friends!
On April 2, I wrote:
I've been hangin out with Jaron and Alan a lot lately, too. They're so funny! They make me laugh so hard! "I'm unarmed!" Hahahaha!
On April 9, I wrote:
Jaron and I... decided to make up our own country. It's called Cjaron. It's awesome! We even have our own "language." It's so cool! ... Jessica and I decided we're gonna double w/ Jaron and Alan. We're gonna go bowling. Jaron says he'll teach me, which is good cuz I can't bowl!
May:
I didn't write anything in my journal during May. I'm sure whatever I was doing, it was great fun!
June:
Girls camp. Ugh. If you know me, you know I am NOT a camper. We'll leave it at that. ;)
On June 7, I wrote:
Kill me now. I'm in a van with 12 other girls. Most of them are beehives, and VERY loud. Lynsey won't shut up! She's singing and gossiping and annoying me. ... I swear, someone is going to end up dead before we get to camp. Either me or someone else! And it'll be my fault!
Now you see that I have little patience when I'm cramped up in a van with 12 12 year olds who are singing Rascal Flatts songs at the top of their lungs. And it's probably not a good idea to wake my up at 5 AM during the summer, either. ;)
On June 8, I wrote:
Alone at last. I don't get much quiet at girls camp. ... All I know now is that I'm very cold.
It rained, snowed, hailed, and slushed. That's right. Slushed. I gained about 40 pounds and 2 inches in height from the mud that stuck to the bottom of my shoes. It was... an experience.
July:
Alan was in Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat at Murray Park. I went to see it, talk about fun.
On July 27, I wrote:
Wow. Today was great. What a turn around. It started out crappy, but ended up great. This morning I told myself that I was gonna have a good day, and I meant it... until my mom told me that I wasn't going to Alan's play. I was so angry. I turned up my music, really really loud, and stayed in my room. I didn't want to talk to my mom, and it was easy not to, since she was doing yard work all morning. At 10 I went to summer seminary... When Alan got there he asked if I was going to the play tonight. I didn't know what to say, so I explained why my parents didn't want me to go (Murray park isn't the best place to be alone at night..especially for a teenage girl). And of course, Alan had a solution. "You could go with my mom. She's going tonight... I might even have a free ticket for you." Alan was awesome.
Summer seminary rocked! On the last day, we had a barbecue. It was a ton of fun!
On July 27, I wrote:
Seminary was great today! It was a barbecue, so we just got to mess around. I hung out with Alan, Jaron, and Silvia. Alan left at noon, and Jaron took me and Silvia to EJH. No one was there, so we went to McDonalds. From there, Jaron went home, and I took Silvia home.
August:
I went to Utah Business Week at Utah State. At first, I didn't want to be there. I missed my friends. But by the end of the week, I didn't want to leave!
On August 1, I wrote:
Maili is my best friend here. We've been sharing food and the funny thing is, our attitudes are a lot alike. We get annoyed at the same things, we make fun of the same things. It's good. Kris, Tyler, and Brenton are my other good friends, although I'm closer to Kris and Tyler. They're so funny. The food here sucks, and both me and Maili have family near, so we've been having our family bring us good food.
On August 2, I wrote:
My room mate went home, so Maili moved in! Yay! lol. There was a dance tonight. It was so much fun! I LOVE dancing. I met this kid named Sam. He reminds me of my friends at home.
On August 3, I wrote:
Oh, wow. Today has been the best so far. Mainly just this afternoon. This morning was filled with boring speakers as usual. This afternoon Maili and I came in to nap for lunch again. I actually got to sleep. Yay. We were late for our company meeting...again. We thought Scott would be mad, but he wasn't. I learned a new game today. It's called "Baby If You Love Me..." SO FUN! I HAVE to teach everyone at home.
September:
The dreaded school begins. The dreaded Junior year.
On September 28, I wrote:
I know, I know. It's 7:10 and I'm already at school. I've been here for 40 minutes. Isn't that insane? Early morning seminary. I love it, but I do miss some things. Like sitting in front of my locker and talking before school.
Early morning seminary is going to be the death of me. I love it, I really do. But it's getting so hard! And like the quitter that I am, I'm switching into seminary during 1B. It'll be better for me.
October:
My little sister had a birthday in October. Kortney and Jaron came over, we messed around with the karaoke machine, and basically had a good time. After Jaron left, Kort slept over. We went through our old journals, and ended up writing for awhile.
On October 6, I wrote:
Hey! I'm sitting here with Kortney. :D We're having fun.
Descriptive, huh? ;) Unfortunately, I didn't write any more about what we did that night, or the next day. You'll just have to trust me. We were having fun. :D
I also asked Alan to Sadies
On October 16, I wrote:
I asked Alan to Sadies last night. I put an alarm clock set for 3:52 under his bed with a poster that said "Wake up! Who knew? It's me, It's you. Get a Clue! Someone wants to go to Sadies with you!"
November:
Sadies! And getting Answered!
On November 20, I wrote:
He trashed my room. Glitter and streamers and balloons everywhere. I had to pop the balloons to see if he said yes or no. But Alan wasn't very sneaky. I totally knew that it was coming.
If you really wanna know about the rest of it, you can read my post on getting answered. And my post for Sadies, for that matter. ;)
On November 21, I wrote:
So yeah, Sadies really wasn't too bad. And after we left the dance, I was mad but I did have fun. I think overall, it's a good memory. I really can't wait for the pictures. I'm super excited for them.
And Thanksgiving, of course!
On November 27, I wrote:
Gotta love Thanksgiving. Lots of food. No school. Sweetness.
December:
I didn't write in December, either. :S Darn. Oh well, I went on a bunch of dates downtown to see the Christmas lights. Christmas break was amazingly fun, and amazingly short. I spent a ton of time with Alan and Jaron, and just had a great time. Life is great!
So there's my review of the year. It was a great year, and I'm totally psyched for the new one. :D It's going to be great, I know it! Thanks to everyone for being my friends. If I didn't mention you up there ^ it's not cuz I didn't want to. It's just cuz, come on, it's my journal. I'd prefer it if my WHOLE journal wasn't posted on the internet. ;) I just picked stuff that wasn't too personal. Anyway, I love ya all. You're all amazing. And I can't wait to hang out more in '07.
*corky*
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
Eww
I feel really... eww... right now. Mostly just physically. My ear has needed to pop for the past 3 days. My nose... let's not get into that. Basically, my body isn't very good at fighting off the common cold. It can take care of pretty much everything, BUT the stupid little cold.
But I guess it's also a mental/emotional thing too. Now before you say "Courtney's gone emo," let me clarify. I'm not really unhappy. Things are pretty good right now. I mean, life's not perfect, but when has it ever been? I think I'm just drained. Things are a bit confusing right now, and I'm not exactly sure who to talk to about it. My mind is refusing to function, and although I know I have homework and extra credit work to do, I can't seem to make my body understand how crucial it is to finish this work. I blame the winter break. Nobody really wants to do anything after the break, right?
Ooh, good. :D Music. I've got it pumping, now. The volume is turned up to 15. I know that's not a huge number, but you should see my stereo. :D 15 is loud enough to make me happy, loud enough to shake the floor, but not quite loud enough for my parents to tell me to turn it down. Most of the time.
Sometimes I wonder what's going to happen in my life. Will the things that are important to me now be important to me later? Will the friends I have now remain with me throughout my life? I think everyone wonders about this sometimes. Especially as teenagers. We're stuck in between childhood and adulthood. We're too old to continue playing with the toys that amused us when we were younger, but we aren't old enough to move out, get a real job, or buy our own house. As my dad is fond of reminding me, we own nothing. Mostly he just points this out to tease me, but it's true. As we are not legal, we don't have any real property rights.
Hmm...
Well this is sort of a depressing post. More thoughtful, than depressing, I guess.
I really do have homework to do. I want to get to bed before 1 AM tonight. 'Night, all. ;)
*corky*
But I guess it's also a mental/emotional thing too. Now before you say "Courtney's gone emo," let me clarify. I'm not really unhappy. Things are pretty good right now. I mean, life's not perfect, but when has it ever been? I think I'm just drained. Things are a bit confusing right now, and I'm not exactly sure who to talk to about it. My mind is refusing to function, and although I know I have homework and extra credit work to do, I can't seem to make my body understand how crucial it is to finish this work. I blame the winter break. Nobody really wants to do anything after the break, right?
Ooh, good. :D Music. I've got it pumping, now. The volume is turned up to 15. I know that's not a huge number, but you should see my stereo. :D 15 is loud enough to make me happy, loud enough to shake the floor, but not quite loud enough for my parents to tell me to turn it down. Most of the time.
Sometimes I wonder what's going to happen in my life. Will the things that are important to me now be important to me later? Will the friends I have now remain with me throughout my life? I think everyone wonders about this sometimes. Especially as teenagers. We're stuck in between childhood and adulthood. We're too old to continue playing with the toys that amused us when we were younger, but we aren't old enough to move out, get a real job, or buy our own house. As my dad is fond of reminding me, we own nothing. Mostly he just points this out to tease me, but it's true. As we are not legal, we don't have any real property rights.
Hmm...
Well this is sort of a depressing post. More thoughtful, than depressing, I guess.
I really do have homework to do. I want to get to bed before 1 AM tonight. 'Night, all. ;)
*corky*
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