Tingly

My foots asleep. So it's all tingly.

Basically, I'm writing this for myself. It's just a long explaination of my day, and you really don't need to read it. It'll be boring. And pretty stupid. So feel free to stop reading at any time.

Today was an interesting day. It was Blackout Day for Spirit Week, so I dressed up. Of course. ;) I always dress up. But today was probably my favorite day. I wore my black lounge pants with grey leggings underneath, and a black t-shirt that says "My bishop rocks," and my black flip flops. I was comfy all day long. :D I love it. I was kind of late leaving the house because I couldn't figure out what I wanted to wear. I still managed to make it to school on time, though. So that's good. Today was an A day, which means first period spanish, second period adult roles, lunch, third period history, fourth period social dance.

First period was alright. We did what we always do: Nothing. He explained conjugating verbs. I'm sorry, but if someone in my class doesn't know how to conjugate a verb, they're screwed. Because, even though I'm in spanish 1, we learned that at the VERY beginning of the year. And here we are in 4th term, and he's explaining it again. My spanish class is full of idiots.

Second period wasn't too exciting, either. We did a cross word, which took a surprisingly long time, and she gave us 2 other worksheets that I didn't get to finish. One is on budgeting (ugh) and the other on marriage. They're due next time, so I'll have to finish them this weekend sometime.

Lunch was pretty good. Alan and I had cooler ranch doritos and blue ice gatorade. Lunch of champions. All of the really healthy olympians? Yeah, they totally have cooler ranch doritos and blue ice gatorade for lunch everyday. I so know it.

Third period was... well, we had a DBQ today, and I wanted to scratch out my eyes. I did a horrible job. We'll leave it at that.

Fourth was actually pretty good. We've been working out the kinks on our cha cha performance. I think it's going to be really fun. I don't know if it will look good, but it will be fun. And that's all that's important. Plus, when we weren't dancing, we played Skum. Now that's a fun card game! :D

After school was when everything kind of... collapsed. Today was the auditions for concert choir. Now, everyone is going to think I'm a baby, and it's kind of weird considering how outgoing I am most of the time, but I'm not a performer. I don't like auditions, I don't like performing by myself, I don't like that kind of thing. It scares me to death. I wasn't too scared for the auditions, because Katie was going to audition with me, and it was going to be ok. But then Katie told me she wasn't auditioning. She didn't want to be in the choir. I had been nervous all day, and Alan had sort of been teasing me about it. He's so confident in performing, I don't think he realised how much it scared me. Anyway, I was in the cafeiteria after school, like I always am, when Katie called me and told me that she wasn't auditioning. I told her it was alright, and then I booked it out of the room. I knew that i was this [] close to a meltdown, and I didn't want everyone to see me cry. I'm such a baby! ;) So I went to b hall, which is where I knew Alan would be. If I saw him, that would be great. But I didn't want to spend a lot of time looking for him because I didn't want anyone to see me cry. So then Jamie stopped me in the hall "Are you ok?" Then I lost it. I started crying, and I explained everything to her. She consoled me, and talked to me, and comforted me. I think Austin might have gone to get Alan, or something. Because not long after Austin walked away, Alan walked up behind me. "Courtney Courtney Courtney!" I turned to him and started crying harder. "Court, what's wrong? Come on, let's go on a walk." So we walked, and I explained it all to him. He told me it was ok. He was going to help me, he would go into the auditions with me and it would be alright. He told me to go home and get my permission slip, and then come back and find him. So that's what I did. I was still sobbing when I got home. Truthfully, I don't know how I drove myself home. I was crying the whole way. I know, I know. It's rediculous. And I feel pretty stupid about it all now. But it's been a hard month, and I've been stressed out for a lot of things lately. This was just the icing on the cake.

So I came home. I talked to my mom. I drank a lot of water, cuz crying really isn't good right before you sing. I washed my face, brushed my hair. You know, the basic girl feel-good things.
Then I ventured back to school. I was walking into the building when Kortney showed up. She knew that I had auditions soon, and she knew how scared I was. Unlike Alan, she understood from the very beginning. We walked to the band room together, and on the way I called Alan. Alan felt really bad, but he couldn't come because he was helping with the play, and they were right in the midddle of a run-through. He wasn't allowed to leave the theater. If Kortney hadn't been there, I would have freaked out all over again. But I told Alan that I would be ok. ("Are you sure?" "No.") And I told him that I'd call him when I was finished with everything. Kortney played the song for me, as I practiced over and over again. Finally it was my turn. Kortney came in with me, and was my moral support. T talked to me a bit about choir, and why I hadn't been in it before ("Cuz I've never really thought that I could sing very well.") then she had me sing the melody. After, she told me that I should have started choir years before. She told me that my voice is very nice, it just needs a little training. Then she had me sing some scales. Kortney said that T had put me with the sopranos, and that she was trying to figure out my range. Alan told me that T had meant what she said about my voice. Huh. Well that wasn't nearly as painful as I had thought it was going to be. But Kim says that now I HAVE to try out for the musical, because now I'm "over" my fear of auditioning. NOT TRUE!! I'm still gonna be afraid. And I only have 2 weeks to figure out which song to sing, and to learn it. Uh oh. Just what I need. More stress.

I know this is a stupid post, but it feels good to get it all out. So I'm gonna keep going.

Molly and I have all but 2 lines of our song for the seminary talent show learned in sign language. Now I just have to get Alan to mix the music for me. Maybe I'll see if he can mix it for me this weekend. If he has any time. I hope he will, because the talent show is on Thursday, and we need to practice with the music.

I have a bunch of stuff going on tomorrow. I have a vocab test with over 100 words, I have 2 math assignments that I need to turn in, and I need to pass off at least 2 songs so I'm not failing guitar at midterm. The most important is the vocab test. I can always turn in the math late, he doens't take points off. And my mom says it's ok if I fail guitar at midterm, because she knows I can bring up the grade easily. So I need to focus more on the vocab tonight.

I'm pretty tired. I have been for a long time. I think it's mostly because of school. I guess I'm not getting a good enough sleep at night, or something. Who knows.

Ok, this is getting to be a really long post, and I think I'm pretty much out of things to say. Except that my room is really messy. Anyway, yeah. That's it.
Have a great night.
*corky*

Montana Cowboy

I got a kick out of this. Hope you all like it.

A cowboy at a bar in Great Falls, Montana, orders three mugs of beer and
sits in the back room, drinking a sip out of each one in turn.
When he finishes them, he comes back to the bar and orders three more.
The bartender tells him, "You know, a mug goes flat after I draw it. It
would taste better if you bought one at a time."
The cowboy replies, "I know, but that's O.K . I have two brothers, one in
Billings , the other in Helena . I'm in Great Falls . When we left
home,
we promised that we'd drink this way to remember the days when we drank
together. I drink one for each of my brothers and one for myself."

The bartender says, "I think that is a nice custom."
The cowboy becomes a regular, and always orders three mugs and drinks
them in turn. One day he comes in and orders only two mugs.
All the regulars take notice and fall silent. When he comes back to the
bar for the second round, the bartender says, "We don't want to intrude
on your grief, but we want to offer our condolences on your loss."
The cowboy looks quite puzzled for a moment, then a light dawns and he
laughs. "Oh, no, everybody's fine," he explains. "It's just that my wife
and I joined the Mormon church and I had to quit drinking. Hasn't
affected my brothers, though."

Giggle giggle.

In other news, I learned how to laugh in sign language today. I would show you, but yeah.... ;)
Have a great day!
*corky*

The Fab Five

Alright, Jaron did this, and as we all know, I'm an idea thief. ;) lol. Anyway, I really would like to do a Fab Five. I'm going to talk about five great things that happened today. I'm going to try to do this quite often. Maybe once a week or something. I think it will help me to focus more on the positive, and maybe it will help you, too. Who knows. ;)

Ok, here's today's Fab Five!

Flippin' Five: It's Friday!!! What more could I ask for?! lol. Weekends rock. It would rock even more if I didn't have the ACT tomorrow, but hey, Prom should be great, right? ;)

Fantastic Four: No Terms test in English!!! We were supposed to have a test on terms for the AP test in English today. But guess who got us out of it? That's right, ladies and gentlemen. The Amazing Corky got our entire AP English class out of the terms test. Go me! ;) Not to sound cocky or anything. ;)

Terrific Three: I got a 94% on my math test today. :D I guessed on 4 of the problems, and managed to get 3 of them right! Talk about a blessing. :) I missed 2 problems. One that I had thought I would get right, and one that I had guessed on. That totally helped my day today. I was kind of worried about that test.

Tremendous Two: Seminary Ice Cream Social!! Oh man, I love ice cream! And I love seminary. So when the two combine, great things happen! Like an ice cream social. ;)Lots of friends, lots of fun, lots of ice cream. :D And the weather was nice, so we had it outside. What can be better than that? Oh man, I love strawberry ice cream. :D

And, drum roll please...

Overwhelming One: Molly and I decided to be in the seminary talent show. Oh my goodness, it's going to be AMAZING!! We decided to learn sign language to some songs that everyone will know. We're thinking Britney Spears, Natasha Beddingfield, *NSync, and more. :P Oh my heck, it's going to be good. :D So, everyone sluff their 1B class, and come and watch Molly and me in a seminary talent show that will totally rock your socks. ;)

And that is todays Fab Five. Thanks for reading. ;) lol. I'm a geekwad, it's true. :D

Have a wonderful weekend!
*corky*

School.

I hate it. The end.

*corky*

Rain!

Brierly Ashour, “Rain in April,” Friend, Apr 1979, inside back cover

I like the sound of April rain
When skies are gray and clouds hang low.
Rain warms the brown and frozen earth
And helps the sleeping flowers grow.


At night I hear the sound of rain
And think how thirsty plants must be,
All shut up tight inside the ground
Awaiting spring to set them free.

Sandra A. Metcalf-Moore, “Rain Is Fun,” Friend, Apr 1985, inside back cover

Rain is fun
As it splashes and sploshes.
I like to skitter in it
With my old galoshes.


I like it when raindrops
Pounce on my head
And trickle and dribble
And chill my nose red.


I like it when the wispy wind
Joins in the spree
And tousles my hair
As I frolic—whoopee!


Dora Faye Redman, “Rain Puddles,” Friend, Jun 1986, 27

Rain puddles hold
dark clouds,
a bit of blue,
a shimmer of sun,
green treetops,
flower faces—
And me!


Sandra Liatsos, “Spring Rain,” Friend, Apr 1981, 39

I like to stand
In silver rain
And catch the shining
Droplets flung
Like a flood
Of falling stars,
Cool and tingling
On my tongue.

Nothing more to say. I love rain. I'm crazy. And random. It's true.

Shh... listen.
*corky*

I <3 Spring Break!

It's already day 2 of spring break 2007, and I'm lovin' it! :D

Yesterday was awesome. I went to Meet the Robinsons in 3D with Kim, Alan, and Jo. Then we went to the mall and just messed around. We walked around wearing our 3D glasses. That was fun. :D We messed around with all the cool massage-y things in Brookstone, and wandered around Bath and Body works. We had lunch at Chick-fil-A, where Blythe was working. After we got sick of the mall, we went to Arctic Circle for ice cream. Next time, we're sticking to Wendys. The ice cream is good, but the service sucked. After eating ice cream (yummy) we went to this cool Japanese store and looked around. I love Japanese stuff. I didn't buy anything, but I totally could have bought half of the store, it's that cool. :D But I don't think it would all fit onto my shelf with all of my Japanese dolls and stuff.

Anyway, I finally ended up getting home, where I crashed for about an hour. I have no excuse. Other than I was really sleepy. :D Sleep deprivation is finally taking it's toll. ;) I woke up in time for dinner. After dinner, I went to a party at Katie's house. Oh my goodness. SO much fun. There was a guitar hero competition going on. Ping pong, dodge ball with tennis balls (until they all went over the fence), not to mention most of my friends, and some good music. I spent a lot of time with Trevor, because I haven't seen him in FOREVER. He takes classes on the internet now, so he doesn't go to Taylorsville anymore. I miss him!!! We had so much fun. Speedbump. :D

So I got home around 11. Talked to my parents for a few minutes, logged on for just enough time to check my email, and then headed to bed.

Now I'm up and showered and almost completely ready for the day. My mom is taking my sisters and me shopping for Easter outfits. I'm pretty excited to get a new skirt. And maybe new shoes. :D I'm such a girl. :D

Today at about 2:30 we're heading up to Logan. And I am sooo excited!! An aunt and uncle that I haven't seen in a LONG time are going to be there. I'm spending the night at James' house, which means we'll watch a movie, and then I'll watch him play video games until I fall asleep at around 2 (if I manage to stay up that long!). I'm pretty psyched. I'll be home tomorrow night sometime.

Oh man, I <3 spring break!
*corky*

Something To Think On.

I don't know if Jaron reads my blog anymore, and honestly I don't care if he is. If he is reading it... well, maybe that's a good thing. I still read his blog, and that might be a good thing, or it might be a bad thing. The thing is, no matter how angry he makes me, no matter how hurt I feel, no matter what happens, I still love the kid to death. And I miss him. When he's sad, I'm sad. When he's happy, well, I get mixed feelings. Sometimes I get angry. Because he's happy without me. Sometimes it makes me really happy, just because he's happy. But when I see him hurting... when I see him feeling like he's all alone... well, it makes me want to comfort him. It makes me want to be there for him, to let him cry on my shoulder, to help him through whatever he's going through. My dad... well, he said something last night that made me think. And it made me feel horrible. He told me that I have to decide between having a lot of friends, and having a best friend. He said that when you have a best friend, it might mean spending every waking minute together. It might mean feeling clingy, or getting over things that anger you. Being a best friend means putting everything aside and caring for that person before you care for yourself. And if that's what being a best friend means, I guess I wasn't a very good friend. There were times where I wanted to spend time with other people, and so I did. I thought I was doing the best I could, but I could have done better. And I truly am sorry for that. I know I was wrong. I know I did some things that might not be rude, or mean, but things that a best friend wouldn't do. I wish I had the chance to be the best best friend. I wish I could show Jaron how much I care for him. I wish I had one more chance to be that friend. I wish I could make him feel better...
yeah, that's how I feel.
*corky*

One Sleepy Corky

I was gonna wake up at 5 to finish some homework. Yeah, didn't happen. I was gonna wake up at 6 to get ready for school. Yeah, didn't happen. My mom came in at about 15 after to pull me out of bed. I don't wanna wake up... Sleepy Corky... I have 2 of my harder classes to go to today: english and pre calc. But I start off with seminary and end with guitar, so that should be ok. I don't know how I'm going to be able to stay awake all day... lol. It's a b day, so Alan, Kim, and I will probably be going to lunch. Wendy's probably.

Wow, I've gotten horribly predictable. Sad, isn't it? After school I'll go to Big Brother/Big Sister, come home at 3:15ish, get online for awhile. Have dinner, start homework, get online. Go to bed, wake up tomorrow and do almost the very same thing all over again. That's depressing. Maybe I need to do something spontaneous this week. But not today. I'm too tired...

Lol. I should be getting ready for school right now. But I'm not. As usual... lol. Maybe I'll sleep in math... I never understand anyway, so why should it make a difference? Cody sleeps in math... lol. Can you all tell I'm way out of it? Maybe I need some sugar. Or some caffeine. :D lol. Have you ever seen me on caffeine? Even just a sip sends me off the wall. It's fun! Hm...

Anyway, I better keep getting ready for my sad, predictable day.
I'll let you know if anything exciting happens.
Ha. Ha.
*corky*

One of My Favorite Weekends

Conference!!! I love it!!
Ok, guys. Here's my favorite quote from the Morning Session:

The spirit of the gospel is optimistic; it trusts in God and looks on the bright side of things. The opposite or pessimistic spirit drags men down and away from God, looks on the dark side, murmers, complains, and is slow to yield to obediance.

-Orson F. Whitney

Pres. Monson quoted this song, and I loved it!

On a beautiful day that I dream about
In a world I would love to see
In a beautiful place where the sun comes out
And it shines in the sky for me
On this beautiful winters morning
If my wish would come true, somehow
Then the beautiful day that I dream about
Would be here, and now.

Elder Holland gave a wonderful talk on words. He gave a maxim for living:

No misfortune is so bad that whining about it won't make it worse.

So there are a few of my favorite moments of this mornings General Conference. :D
Stay tuned for the afternoon conference session!
*corky*

Good News/Bad News

The good news is it rained today. The bad news is it's supposed to be snow by morning.
*corky*

Hey Look! It's Me!

Hey everyone! I'm home! And very glad to be home, actually. It was nice to get away, but home is always the best, right? In fact, I think that's why people take vacations: To remind them how great home actually is. The past few weeks have been rough, I'm not gonna lie. It was very nice to get away for awhile, and not have to worry about things. But even tho it was good to get away, it's time for me to get back to everything and everyone.

California was amazing. I managed to steal the window seat from my sister on the way there. I am so glad that I did! There's just something about being able to look down on clouds... They looked like huge cotton balls. Some of them were wispy and bare looking. Others were thick and full and looked like they might bounce if you touched them. The sky was miraculously blue, and the sun was bright. What a great way to start a vacation!! When we came in to land, it seemed that no matter how close we got to the clouds, we would never be close enough to touch them. And then suddenly we were engulfed, and I couldn't see anything but white out the window. I love flying. :D After we were through the clouds, it was a total contrast. Everything before had been completely natural. Nothing that beautiful could be man made. And then suddenly there were buildings and roads and cars, it was another kind of beautiful. A different kind. But I have to say... I was staring out over everything, and suddenly there was the ocean. Glinting and shimmering in the sunlight, it took my breath away. The waves were crashing in onto the sand. And I was practically having trouble breathing because I was so excited! And then we turned. I craned my neck, and twisted to keep it in sight, but eventually it disappeared. This only made me more excited to go to the beach!

I'm not going to talk a lot about Disneyland, cuz it's nothing new to me. Space mountain is probably my favorite ride. I was able to spend a lot of time with my younger sister; we're already close and this trip it was a ton of fun to spend so much time together. It was great to forget about everything that I had been worrying and stressing so much about.

On Thursday we went to the beach! My mom and sisters stayed at Disneyland, they didn't want to go. But my aunt and uncle, cousins, my dad, and I all went to the beach. I didn't get to spend enough time there! The sand was soft and warm between my toes. The water was freezing! But I didn't mind. I waded in so that the waves reached my knees when they came in. I loved watching the sea foam linger on the beach and on my toes. I walked up and down the beach, leaving footprints in the sand. There were two surfers out in the waves. The beach was calm, and secluded, and wonderful. The weather was perfect. Just cloudy enough to keep the sun off of us, and warm enough to truly enjoy the beach. I wrote my name in the sand with my toes. I made sure to write it close enough to the waters so that when the next wave came in, it was washed away. The sand was covered in shells, but as we had been climbing down to the beach, there had been a sign that had said absolutely no taking anything off the beach. My dad told me no, but whatever. I was on the beach, and I was taking part of it home with me. So as I danced away from my dad through the sand, I watched him. As soon as his back was turned, I'd grab a shell and sneak it into my pocked. I came home with both pockets full of shells. :D All too soon, it was time to leave. I was covered in sand and pretty wet. The bite and sting of the salt water and air covered my skin. I could smell the salt in the air. I love the ocean. Just as we were leaving, I looked up into the sky just in time to have a raindrop land on my face. Can you say Heaven?

The rest of the trip was just as normal. My dad and I were thuroughly sick of Disneyland the day before we left. Just like always. My feet felt like they were gonna fall off, my shins hurt from the climb down to the beach, and my family drove me up the wall. But what's a family vacation without a little complaining, right?

Finally it was time to come home. I was really excited. I managed to weasel the window seat again, although it's harder to see things when you're flying home in the dark. The only times I was able to see anything was during take off and landing. I could see the lights of the cities, the lights of the cars, and that was just as beautiful to me as flying during the day time would have been. All the little lights reminded me of stars in the sky.

And now I'm home. And I'm very excited to be here. It's great to be back, and I think I'm ready to face things. I think my trip to California helped to motivate me. I'm going to work harder this term, and play less. I'm going to do what I need to do and do it well. I'm going to be nicer to my family, I'm going to be nicer to my friends. I'm going to love life. I'm going to be happy. I'm going to keep my room clean, and I'm going to stop procrastinating. And If you believed that last sentence, you don't know me at all. What I should have said is, I'm going to try to keep my room a bit cleaner, and I'm going to try to procrastinate less. ;) But one thing that I am going to do is face things. I'm going to step up to the plate, I'm going to get thigns done. And I will come off victorious. ;)

One of the things I need to face is... well, Jaron and I are done. It hurts to say this. He was my best friend. But there's been too much heartbreak. I've cried too many tears. And I'm done. It's been hard to talk about. It's been hard to think about. I never imagined things would go so wrong, and it would be a lie to say I knew it would come down to this. A lot of things have happened, but I'm starting to heal. I can listen to Dashboard now, even the song Hands Down. That was our song. That's what we would sing (more like scream) along with in the car, laughing the entire time. I can look back without anger. And that's a big step for me. It still hurts sometimes. But even that will eventually fade. So Jaron, if you're reading this (and even if you're not), thank you. Thank you for the memories. Thank you for the laughs and the smiles and the times we sat in silence, just... content. I will always treasure those memories. I will never forget them. I'm sad that it didn't work out the way I thought it would. I'm sorry if I ever hurt you and I'm sorry for the mean things I might have said. I wouldn't trade the time that we spent together for anything. You were truly my best friend, and I loved you more than you'll ever know. But now we both know that it's time to move on. It will be better for both of us. And all I ever wanted is the best for you. So, Jaron, good luck with whatever is ahead for you. I wish you only the best. With all the love in the world, Courtney.

I guess when I chose my title today, I was thinking more along the lines of "I'm home." But I guess what it turned out to mean is... I'm back. I'm happy. I'm going to take care of things, I'm going to work things out. And I'm going to stop worrying. I worry too much. What I look like, what others think of me, what I act like... I've always said that I love being me, and I guess for awhile my confidence to be me was shot. But it's back. I'm back. Hey look! It's me!
*corky*

"You don't wear makeup?!"

Oh wow. What a day. Not exactly the greatest. Although I did get some laughs, so it wasn't all bad. Lunch pretty much sucked, and so did the beginning of guitar, but then Jared got me laughing, so it was all good. :D

I told Jared that he should pass off my songs for my in guitar (I had to pass off two today). He told me that he'd need a wig, we'd have to change clothes, and he'd need some makeup. I told him "I don't wear makeup..." Oh man, I just had to laugh! You should have seen his face! It was classic! I loved it. He was like "What?! I totally thought that you wear makeup. You look like you do, that's why I said that..." It was great. I really don't wear makeup, I wasn't just saying that.... alright, so maybe you just had to be there. :D Or maybe you just had to be me. :D

I'm going to Disneyland tomorrow! Look out Cali, here I come! ;)

Oh wow, I'm really behind in work. Still. And I'm no where near done packing. And I have to get up at like 4 tomorrow to finish. Oh boy.

Annnyway, I thought I'd post one more time before I leave. Have a wonderful week, everyone! I get back Saturday night!
*corky*

Sing a Song

I am in a really good mood! Despite the fact that I should be doing homework right now. For some reason, I'm just really happy, and I don't know why! I love feeling like this. :D I'm totally singing along to my stereo and stuff. It's good time.

The bad news is, it's end of term and I feel terribly behind. :( That's ok. I'm going to catch up. I know it! I have to! But I'm feeling really optimistic, it's going to be very good.

I am very much a daddy's girl. Tonight I got to go to dinner with my dad, and it was just us two. We haven't been able to do something like that in a long time, and it was really fun. Hopefully we'll get to do it again soon.

I really love how light it is outside. Totally makes me happy.

Tomorrow is Friday! Who loves weekends? Me! Me! :D Region dance Saturday! All the cool kids will be there. :D I'm so going. ;) It's gonna be good.

Oh man, sorry for the hyper randomness. :D

I'm going to Disneyland next week. I'm pretty excited! People make fun of me for saying this, but I haven't been since July. My mom is a total disney geek. I actually don't mind it. Disneyland is fun. I love the rides. And I can totally scope out the hot Californian guys. ;) lol. jk.

Alright, well I'm gonna get some homework done. This post was fairly pointless, but I had fun with it. :D
Talk to you later!
*corky*

Our Deepest Fear

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, which most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be wonderful, talented, gorgeous, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn't serve the world. There is nothing enlightening about shrinking so that other people will not feel insecure around you. We were born to manifest God's glory within us. It is in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we automatically give others permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fears, our presence liberates others.

My dad gave me a copy of this quote. I'm not sure who said it, but it's amazing. And it's true!
There's the thought for the day! ;)
I'm out.
*corky*

Happy Day

Good morning everyone. I just woke up! Stake Conference is today, and it's really going to be a great day! I'm very happy and very optimistic this morning. :D

Nathan asked me to Prom this week. I'm pretty excited. It's going to be really fun! And I already know how I'm gonna answer him. I figured it out on Friday night. I was just messing with him earlier when I told him it was gonna be bad. ;) But now that I actually know what I'm doing... oh man, it's gonna be classic. :D I would tell you what I'm doing, but since Nathan is one of the like... 3 people who read my blog, I'll wait until he posts about it. :D

I love boys choice dances. There's SO much less work for me. :D

Oh! I got my sweethearts pics from my uncle finally. I might post one of them. I really really like them! I think they turned out really well considering how dark it was.

Well, I have to leave for church in about an hour, so I should probably start getting ready now. :D Have a great day, everyone!
<3
*corky*

Awww...Cute!

"She's Everything" -Brad Paisley

She's a yellow pair of running shoes
A holey pair of jeans
She looks great in cheap sunglasses
She looks great in anything
She's I want a piece of chocolate
Take me to a movie
She's I can't find a thing to wear
Now and then she's moody

She's a Saturn with a sunroof
With her brown hair a-blowing
She's a soft place to land
And a good feeling knowing
She's a warm conversation
That I wouldn't miss for nothing
She's a fighter when she's mad
And she's a lover when she's loving

[Chorus]
And she's everything I ever wanted
And everything I need
I talk about her, I go on and on and on
'Cause she's everything to me

She's a Saturday out on the town
And a church girl on Sunday
She's a cross around her neck
And a cuss word 'cause its Monday
She's a bubble bath and candles
Baby come and kiss me
She's a one glass of wine
And she's feeling kinda tipsy

She's the giver I wish I could be
And the stealer of the covers
She's a picture in my wallet
Of my unborn children's mother
She's the hand that I'm holding
When I'm on my knees and praying
She's the answer to my prayer
And she's the song that I'm playing

[Repeat chorus]

She's the voice I love to hear
Someday when I'm ninety
She's that wooden rocking chair
I want rocking right beside me
Everyday that passes
I only love her more
Yeah, she's the one
That I'd lay down my own life for

And she's everything I ever wanted
And everything I need
She's everything to me
Yeah she's everything to me

Everything I ever wanted
And everything I need
She's everything to me


Alright, this song is cute! I love it! It's country, so I know a few people won't like it. But you have to admit, the lyrics are good. :D Oh man, I love music! This is seriously good stuff. I love getting itunes gift cards for my b-day. :D
Anyway, I better run. You guys rock.
*corky*

Is this a pick up? 'Cuz I've gotten better lines from boys in my high school lunch room.

I know Spencer might not approve of this, but I think it's hilarious! These are all pick up lines, and they make me laugh. :D They're all pretty cheesey, just a warning. Would these actually work on me? A few of them might. ;) You'll just have to try them out for yourself!

Do you have a Bandaid? Because I just scraped my knee falling for you.
Let's make like fabric softener and snuggle.
There must be something wrong with my eyes, I can't take them off you.
Girl, you better have a license, cuz you are driving me crazy!
You make me melt like hot fudge on a sundae.
Can I borrow a quarter? I want to call my mom and tell her I just met the girl of my dreams.
I must be in heaven because I'm standing next to you!
If I could rearrange the alphabet, I'd put U and I together.
You must be from outter space cause I can see the stars in your eyes.
If you were a booger I'd pick you first.
Can I have directions? To your heart.
Do you believe in love at first sight, or should I walk by again?
When I saw you from across the room, I passed out cold and hit my head on
the floor...so I'm going to need your name and number for insurance reasons.
You know what? Your eyes are the same color as my Porsche.
Do you have a map? Because I just keep getting lost in your eyes!
Is there an airport nearby or is that my heart taking off?
Do you have any raisins? No? How about a date?
A song from your lips is an aria from heaven.
Are you a parking ticket? You got fine written all over you.
Are you a tamale? 'Cause you're hot.
Are you accepting applications for your fan club?
Are you an interior decorator? When I saw you the room became beautiful.
Are you as beautiful on the inside as you are on the outside?
Are you going to kiss me or do I have to lie to my diary?

So there you have it. :D They're hilarious, right? ;) That's my bit for the night.
Adios, Amigos.
*corky*

Just A Line In A Song...

Ok, I really love music. It's amazing... I just love it! There's a song for every mood. Different songs strike me at different times. These are just a few lines from a few songs that made me think. Maybe they applied to my life at the time, or maybe I just like the lyrics. Anyway, here ya go. :D

"I'll be your crying shoulder, I'll be love's suicide I'll be better when I'm older, I'll be the greatest fan of your life." -Edwin McCain, I'll Be

"Our song is the slamming screen door, Sneakin' out late, tapping on your window When we're on the phone and you talk real slow Cause it's late and your mama don't know Our song is the way you laugh The first date "man, I didn't kiss her, and I should have"And when I got home ... before I said amen Asking God if he could play it again" -Taylor Swift, Our Song

"He said the way my blue eyes shined Put those Georgia stars to shame that night I said: "That's a lie."Just a boy in a Chevy truck That had a tendency of gettin' stuck On backroads at night And I was right there beside him all summer long And then the time we woke up to find that summer gone." -Taylor Swift, Tim McGraw

"I'm falling even more in love with you letting go of all I've held onto I'm standing here until you make me move I'm hanging by a moment here with you." -Lifehouse, Hangin' By A Moment

"Cause it's you and me and all other people with nothing to do Nothing to lose And it's you and me and all other people And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you" -Lifehouse, You and Me

"Maybe I'm not but you're all I got left to believe in Don't give up on me I'm about to come alive And I know that it's been hard And it's been a long time coming Don't give up on me I'm about to come alive" -Train, I'm About To Come Alive

"Some people want it all But I don't want nothing at all If it ain't you baby" -Alicia Keys, If I Ain't Got You

"And all the perfect words they seem so wrong, She's gone You wish that you could learn to see, The door is closed and you wish you could be Alone with you, alone with me What can I do, I cannot breathe My heart is torn, for all to see Alone with you, alone with me." -The All-American Rejects, One More Sad Song

"Do you believe in magic? In a young girls heart How the music can free her whenever it starts And it's magic if the music is groovy It makes you feel happy like an old time movie" -Aly and AJ, Do You Believe In Magic

"He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do." -Taylor Swift, Teardrops on My Guitar

"there's never a wish better than this When you only got 100 years to live" -Five for Fighting, 100 Years

"she laid her heart and soul right in your hands And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans She never even knew she had a choice and that's what happens When the only voice she hears is telling her she can't You stupid boy" -Keith Urban, Stupid Boy

"I'd rather be anything but ordinary please" -Avril Lavigne, Anything But Ordinary

"Closing timeYou don't have to go home but you can't stay here ... Closing time Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end" -Closing Time, Semisonic

"I want a little something more Don't want the middle or the one before I don't desire a complicated past I want a love that will last Say that you love Say im the one Don't kiss and hug me and then try to run I don't do drama My tears don't fall fast I want a love that will last" -Renee Olstead, A Love That Will Last

"Cause you had a bad day You're taking one down You sing a sad song just to turn it around You say you don't know You tell me don't lie You work at a smile and you go for a ride You had a bad day The camera don't lie You're coming back down and you really don't mind You had a bad day" -Daniel Powter, Bad Day

So there are just a few. There are so many more! I have so many favorite songs! I would love to post them all here, but that would take forever and be WAY too long. :D I really liked this idea, it was really fun to look at the lyrics to these songs. Hope you like it!
*corky*

Random Ramblings

Hola. I've been having an off... month, I guess. But for some reason right now I just feel really happy. I'm not sure why, exactly, but I feel happy. It's a nice feeling, and I can't get the smile off of my face, not that I want it gone or anything. :D
I haven't done much work lately, homework or otherwise. I decided to do some today. I think that's a good idea.
Nobody is home, I'm here alone. And I like it. It's fun to have the house all to myself. I've got my music turned up nice and loud, and it just feels good. Strange, huh? I like it. :D
Well, I really need to finish up a bunch of stuff. I have some people I want to email ,*cough*Spencer and Nathan*cough* ;) and I need to clean my room and do a bunch of homework. :D

Have a fantabulous night, everyone.
*corky*

Sacrifice

Sometimes, when you love something/one... you give up what you want for what's best for them.

That's what I'm doing. I don't exactly like it.
*corky*