Saturday, March 31, 2007

One of My Favorite Weekends

Conference!!! I love it!!
Ok, guys. Here's my favorite quote from the Morning Session:

The spirit of the gospel is optimistic; it trusts in God and looks on the bright side of things. The opposite or pessimistic spirit drags men down and away from God, looks on the dark side, murmers, complains, and is slow to yield to obediance.

-Orson F. Whitney

Pres. Monson quoted this song, and I loved it!
On a beautiful day that I dream about
In a world I would love to see
In a beautiful place where the sun comes out
And it shines in the sky for me
On this beautiful winters morning
If my wish would come true, somehow
Then the beautiful day that I dream about
Would be here, and now.


Elder Holland gave a wonderful talk on words. He gave a maxim for living:
No misfortune is so bad that whining about it won't make it worse.


So there are a few of my favorite moments of this mornings General Conference. :D
Stay tuned for the afternoon conference session!
*corky*

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

Good News/Bad News

The good news is it rained today. The bad news is it's supposed to be snow by morning.
*corky*

Sunday, March 25, 2007

Hey Look! It's Me!

Hey everyone! I'm home! And very glad to be home, actually. It was nice to get away, but home is always the best, right? In fact, I think that's why people take vacations: To remind them how great home actually is. The past few weeks have been rough, I'm not gonna lie. It was very nice to get away for awhile, and not have to worry about things. But even tho it was good to get away, it's time for me to get back to everything and everyone.

California was amazing. I managed to steal the window seat from my sister on the way there. I am so glad that I did! There's just something about being able to look down on clouds... They looked like huge cotton balls. Some of them were wispy and bare looking. Others were thick and full and looked like they might bounce if you touched them. The sky was miraculously blue, and the sun was bright. What a great way to start a vacation!! When we came in to land, it seemed that no matter how close we got to the clouds, we would never be close enough to touch them. And then suddenly we were engulfed, and I couldn't see anything but white out the window. I love flying. :D After we were through the clouds, it was a total contrast. Everything before had been completely natural. Nothing that beautiful could be man made. And then suddenly there were buildings and roads and cars, it was another kind of beautiful. A different kind. But I have to say... I was staring out over everything, and suddenly there was the ocean. Glinting and shimmering in the sunlight, it took my breath away. The waves were crashing in onto the sand. And I was practically having trouble breathing because I was so excited! And then we turned. I craned my neck, and twisted to keep it in sight, but eventually it disappeared. This only made me more excited to go to the beach!

I'm not going to talk a lot about Disneyland, cuz it's nothing new to me. Space mountain is probably my favorite ride. I was able to spend a lot of time with my younger sister; we're already close and this trip it was a ton of fun to spend so much time together. It was great to forget about everything that I had been worrying and stressing so much about.

On Thursday we went to the beach! My mom and sisters stayed at Disneyland, they didn't want to go. But my aunt and uncle, cousins, my dad, and I all went to the beach. I didn't get to spend enough time there! The sand was soft and warm between my toes. The water was freezing! But I didn't mind. I waded in so that the waves reached my knees when they came in. I loved watching the sea foam linger on the beach and on my toes. I walked up and down the beach, leaving footprints in the sand. There were two surfers out in the waves. The beach was calm, and secluded, and wonderful. The weather was perfect. Just cloudy enough to keep the sun off of us, and warm enough to truly enjoy the beach. I wrote my name in the sand with my toes. I made sure to write it close enough to the waters so that when the next wave came in, it was washed away. The sand was covered in shells, but as we had been climbing down to the beach, there had been a sign that had said absolutely no taking anything off the beach. My dad told me no, but whatever. I was on the beach, and I was taking part of it home with me. So as I danced away from my dad through the sand, I watched him. As soon as his back was turned, I'd grab a shell and sneak it into my pocked. I came home with both pockets full of shells. :D All too soon, it was time to leave. I was covered in sand and pretty wet. The bite and sting of the salt water and air covered my skin. I could smell the salt in the air. I love the ocean. Just as we were leaving, I looked up into the sky just in time to have a raindrop land on my face. Can you say Heaven?

The rest of the trip was just as normal. My dad and I were thuroughly sick of Disneyland the day before we left. Just like always. My feet felt like they were gonna fall off, my shins hurt from the climb down to the beach, and my family drove me up the wall. But what's a family vacation without a little complaining, right?

Finally it was time to come home. I was really excited. I managed to weasel the window seat again, although it's harder to see things when you're flying home in the dark. The only times I was able to see anything was during take off and landing. I could see the lights of the cities, the lights of the cars, and that was just as beautiful to me as flying during the day time would have been. All the little lights reminded me of stars in the sky.

And now I'm home. And I'm very excited to be here. It's great to be back, and I think I'm ready to face things. I think my trip to California helped to motivate me. I'm going to work harder this term, and play less. I'm going to do what I need to do and do it well. I'm going to be nicer to my family, I'm going to be nicer to my friends. I'm going to love life. I'm going to be happy. I'm going to keep my room clean, and I'm going to stop procrastinating. And If you believed that last sentence, you don't know me at all. What I should have said is, I'm going to try to keep my room a bit cleaner, and I'm going to try to procrastinate less. ;) But one thing that I am going to do is face things. I'm going to step up to the plate, I'm going to get thigns done. And I will come off victorious. ;)

One of the things I need to face is... well, Jaron and I are done. It hurts to say this. He was my best friend. But there's been too much heartbreak. I've cried too many tears. And I'm done. It's been hard to talk about. It's been hard to think about. I never imagined things would go so wrong, and it would be a lie to say I knew it would come down to this. A lot of things have happened, but I'm starting to heal. I can listen to Dashboard now, even the song Hands Down. That was our song. That's what we would sing (more like scream) along with in the car, laughing the entire time. I can look back without anger. And that's a big step for me. It still hurts sometimes. But even that will eventually fade. So Jaron, if you're reading this (and even if you're not), thank you. Thank you for the memories. Thank you for the laughs and the smiles and the times we sat in silence, just... content. I will always treasure those memories. I will never forget them. I'm sad that it didn't work out the way I thought it would. I'm sorry if I ever hurt you and I'm sorry for the mean things I might have said. I wouldn't trade the time that we spent together for anything. You were truly my best friend, and I loved you more than you'll ever know. But now we both know that it's time to move on. It will be better for both of us. And all I ever wanted is the best for you. So, Jaron, good luck with whatever is ahead for you. I wish you only the best. With all the love in the world, Courtney.

I guess when I chose my title today, I was thinking more along the lines of "I'm home." But I guess what it turned out to mean is... I'm back. I'm happy. I'm going to take care of things, I'm going to work things out. And I'm going to stop worrying. I worry too much. What I look like, what others think of me, what I act like... I've always said that I love being me, and I guess for awhile my confidence to be me was shot. But it's back. I'm back. Hey look! It's me!
*corky*

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

"You don't wear makeup?!"

Oh wow. What a day. Not exactly the greatest. Although I did get some laughs, so it wasn't all bad. Lunch pretty much sucked, and so did the beginning of guitar, but then Jared got me laughing, so it was all good. :D

I told Jared that he should pass off my songs for my in guitar (I had to pass off two today). He told me that he'd need a wig, we'd have to change clothes, and he'd need some makeup. I told him "I don't wear makeup..." Oh man, I just had to laugh! You should have seen his face! It was classic! I loved it. He was like "What?! I totally thought that you wear makeup. You look like you do, that's why I said that..." It was great. I really don't wear makeup, I wasn't just saying that.... alright, so maybe you just had to be there. :D Or maybe you just had to be me. :D

I'm going to Disneyland tomorrow! Look out Cali, here I come! ;)

Oh wow, I'm really behind in work. Still. And I'm no where near done packing. And I have to get up at like 4 tomorrow to finish. Oh boy.

Annnyway, I thought I'd post one more time before I leave. Have a wonderful week, everyone! I get back Saturday night!
*corky*

Thursday, March 15, 2007

Sing a Song

I am in a really good mood! Despite the fact that I should be doing homework right now. For some reason, I'm just really happy, and I don't know why! I love feeling like this. :D I'm totally singing along to my stereo and stuff. It's good time.

The bad news is, it's end of term and I feel terribly behind. :( That's ok. I'm going to catch up. I know it! I have to! But I'm feeling really optimistic, it's going to be very good.

I am very much a daddy's girl. Tonight I got to go to dinner with my dad, and it was just us two. We haven't been able to do something like that in a long time, and it was really fun. Hopefully we'll get to do it again soon.

I really love how light it is outside. Totally makes me happy.

Tomorrow is Friday! Who loves weekends? Me! Me! :D Region dance Saturday! All the cool kids will be there. :D I'm so going. ;) It's gonna be good.

Oh man, sorry for the hyper randomness. :D

I'm going to Disneyland next week. I'm pretty excited! People make fun of me for saying this, but I haven't been since July. My mom is a total disney geek. I actually don't mind it. Disneyland is fun. I love the rides. And I can totally scope out the hot Californian guys. ;) lol. jk.

Alright, well I'm gonna get some homework done. This post was fairly pointless, but I had fun with it. :D
Talk to you later!
*corky*

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

Our Deepest Fear

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, which most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be wonderful, talented, gorgeous, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn't serve the world. There is nothing enlightening about shrinking so that other people will not feel insecure around you. We were born to manifest God's glory within us. It is in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we automatically give others permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fears, our presence liberates others.


My dad gave me a copy of this quote. I'm not sure who said it, but it's amazing. And it's true!
There's the thought for the day! ;)
I'm out.
*corky*

Sunday, March 11, 2007

Happy Day

Good morning everyone. I just woke up! Stake Conference is today, and it's really going to be a great day! I'm very happy and very optimistic this morning. :D

Nathan asked me to Prom this week. I'm pretty excited. It's going to be really fun! And I already know how I'm gonna answer him. I figured it out on Friday night. I was just messing with him earlier when I told him it was gonna be bad. ;) But now that I actually know what I'm doing... oh man, it's gonna be classic. :D I would tell you what I'm doing, but since Nathan is one of the like... 3 people who read my blog, I'll wait until he posts about it. :D

I love boys choice dances. There's SO much less work for me. :D

Oh! I got my sweethearts pics from my uncle finally. I might post one of them. I really really like them! I think they turned out really well considering how dark it was.

Well, I have to leave for church in about an hour, so I should probably start getting ready now. :D Have a great day, everyone!
<3
*corky*

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

Awww...Cute!

"She's Everything" -Brad Paisley

She's a yellow pair of running shoes
A holey pair of jeans
She looks great in cheap sunglasses
She looks great in anything
She's I want a piece of chocolate
Take me to a movie
She's I can't find a thing to wear
Now and then she's moody

She's a Saturn with a sunroof
With her brown hair a-blowing
She's a soft place to land
And a good feeling knowing
She's a warm conversation
That I wouldn't miss for nothing
She's a fighter when she's mad
And she's a lover when she's loving

[Chorus]
And she's everything I ever wanted
And everything I need
I talk about her, I go on and on and on
'Cause she's everything to me

She's a Saturday out on the town
And a church girl on Sunday
She's a cross around her neck
And a cuss word 'cause its Monday
She's a bubble bath and candles
Baby come and kiss me
She's a one glass of wine
And she's feeling kinda tipsy

She's the giver I wish I could be
And the stealer of the covers
She's a picture in my wallet
Of my unborn children's mother
She's the hand that I'm holding
When I'm on my knees and praying
She's the answer to my prayer
And she's the song that I'm playing

[Repeat chorus]

She's the voice I love to hear
Someday when I'm ninety
She's that wooden rocking chair
I want rocking right beside me
Everyday that passes
I only love her more
Yeah, she's the one
That I'd lay down my own life for

And she's everything I ever wanted
And everything I need
She's everything to me
Yeah she's everything to me

Everything I ever wanted
And everything I need
She's everything to me


Alright, this song is cute! I love it! It's country, so I know a few people won't like it. But you have to admit, the lyrics are good. :D Oh man, I love music! This is seriously good stuff. I love getting itunes gift cards for my b-day. :D
Anyway, I better run. You guys rock.
*corky*

Monday, March 05, 2007

Is this a pick up? 'Cuz I've gotten better lines from boys in my high school lunch room.

I know Spencer might not approve of this, but I think it's hilarious! These are all pick up lines, and they make me laugh. :D They're all pretty cheesey, just a warning. Would these actually work on me? A few of them might. ;) You'll just have to try them out for yourself!

Do you have a Bandaid? Because I just scraped my knee falling for you.
Let's make like fabric softener and snuggle.
There must be something wrong with my eyes, I can't take them off you.
Girl, you better have a license, cuz you are driving me crazy!
You make me melt like hot fudge on a sundae.
Can I borrow a quarter? I want to call my mom and tell her I just met the girl of my dreams.
I must be in heaven because I'm standing next to you!
If I could rearrange the alphabet, I'd put U and I together.
You must be from outter space cause I can see the stars in your eyes.
If you were a booger I'd pick you first.
Can I have directions? To your heart.
Do you believe in love at first sight, or should I walk by again?
When I saw you from across the room, I passed out cold and hit my head on
the floor...so I'm going to need your name and number for insurance reasons.
You know what? Your eyes are the same color as my Porsche.
Do you have a map? Because I just keep getting lost in your eyes!
Is there an airport nearby or is that my heart taking off?
Do you have any raisins? No? How about a date?
A song from your lips is an aria from heaven.
Are you a parking ticket? You got fine written all over you.
Are you a tamale? 'Cause you're hot.
Are you accepting applications for your fan club?
Are you an interior decorator? When I saw you the room became beautiful.
Are you as beautiful on the inside as you are on the outside?
Are you going to kiss me or do I have to lie to my diary?

So there you have it. :D They're hilarious, right? ;) That's my bit for the night.
Adios, Amigos.
*corky*